This one really is a composer who has written
several movie scores.
I’m in awe and on
the phone mostly say ‘ah’, ‘erm’, ‘well’
and ‘actually’.
He hangs up soon but calls
again a few hours later. He apologizes for having been odd but he was
in an odd mood. He had just given his first interview for a movie magazine,
which was odd.
He uses the word odd a
lot.
When we meet I understand
why.
It is the word that sums
him up. It is his quintessential adjective.
He is tall and skinny.
His head sticks out of hunched shoulders, upward and forward like an odd
turtle. He wears a disconcerting frown and his eyes blink continuously.
First I think this is
because he considers me a nuisance.
It takes a while to understand
that it is just the way he looks.
Since he is a creative
artist I feel pressured to entertain him with my own creativity.
When he isn’t impressed
and I run out of things to say I drag his life story out of him.
It feels like pulling
teeth.
He has a mathematics degree
but has always enjoyed playing around on keyboards.
One day his mate, a movie
director, asked him if he could use his sound bites in a movie.
He split up with his girlfriend
only recently.
He cannot remember why.
The way he says it sounds
as if he would like to give her a call right now and ask her help him
refresh his memory.
After our date we send e-mails in which we agree we both felt an odd
sympathy but behaved like depolarised magnets, which repel even when they
try to attract.
Oddly enough, we don’t
stop e-mailing.
He asks if I could sell
a modern opera.
I say yes and dream of
becoming his best friend, the one he will ask along when he gets nominated
for an Academy Award.
We meet again to watch ‘Unbreakable’ at the cinema. We find
it unbearably bad and have a passionate movie discussion. I like his lecture
on film music and whether and when it should be noticeable.
When he talks about music
he loosens up and stops blinking.
For a moment the frown
disappears and he is almost attractive.
In subsequent e-mails we confess that date two was better than date one.
We watch another movie
together.
On the bus home, he doesn’t
utter a word, stares silently into space, is so far away I don’t
dare to speak.
We e-mail a few more times but cannot decide on which movie to watch
next.
When he doesn’t
reply to one of my mails I don’t ask why and delete his e-mail address
and phone number. |